Desire to be Pursued

I saw a movie the other night that got me thinking. What is it about those romantic movies that makes women want to see them?  Why do our hearts flutter when the handsome guy declares his love for the girl?  How does a movie like that make you feel good all over and leave you wanting more?  I think it is because all women have a longing in them to be desired and pursued.  We all want someone to fall for us and treasure us for who we are.  It is built into us like a function of the brain, or perhaps the heart.  Often times we enter into relationships where a guy does pursue us and it makes us feel valuable and special.  In a lot of cases we get married to a pursuer that treats us as if we are the most important thing to them.  Often times, as life gets in the way, the pursuit lessens and we don't feel as special anymore.  Perhaps, the guy even takes on new pursuits that leave us hurt and feeling less special than when we began with them.  There are many great guys out there that give their relationships the greatest of effort and do their best to meet their wives needs.  The problem is that even the great guys are not equipped fully to meet every need that a woman has.

This is where my thoughts took me as I tried to figure out the impact of the movie. My conclusion became that we are created with a longing that no man can fill.  This is horrible news if you have been searching for that or if you are in a relationship holding out all hope that one day your man would learn.  It is fantastic news, however, if you realize that God created us with this longing that only He can fill.  We can search for it all of our earthly lives only to come up empty handed.  That is, unless we realize it now and give ourselves to the one pursuer that will never fail us.  Think about it for a minute.  As women we long to be held and desired not for what we can do but just for who we are.  We long for affirmation and unconditional love no matter what our failures may be.  We long for acceptance and security, knowing that we will never be left and never be alone.  We want to know that someone else desires us, continually pursues us and can't get us out of their head.  When we see that kind of thing in a movie or read it in a book we get all weak in the knees and have to resist the urge to fall for the actor who is (pretending to be) that kind of guy. 

As I fall deeper in love with my Saviour I realize that He is everything I have ever longed for and more.  He is everything I desire.  He is always there to hold me whether I need to be held in times of sorrow or just want to spend time with Him growing.  He has pursued me all my life to get me to this point with Him and He doesn't stop pursuing me.  He takes me deeper and shows me more and more of Himself.  When I listen to Him I only hear passionate love for me. Every bit of what He speaks is filtered through a heart of love for me.  Even the challenges and discipline are never harsh, never rude, but always patient and kind. 

If we truly believed this about Our God then we would run to Him and let Him love us as only He can love us.  Do you believe you are loved passionately by Him?  Does your heart really believe it?  Run to Him and let Him heal your hurts with His love.  Let Him tell you how passionately He has pursued you.  Fall into His arms and give in to His amazing love.  You cannot help but be changed.  When you know how He loves you then you will walk in a new way.  You will become the woman you are meant to be.  And you will not try to fill that void with anything but Him.

He loves you...He REALLY does!

God loves you!  Now I want to ask you a question.  Do you really believe that?  Really?  Do you believe that because you are told that and you know God's word says it so it must be true?  Or do you really, in your heart of hearts, believe it?  Think about it for a minute.  If you really believe that the King of Kings and Lord of Lords loves you then is there any reason to fear, doubt, be insecure, or believe that you don't have a unique purpose to fulfill?  1 John 4:18 says "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."  Often times, because of our human nature, we equate God's love to love (or lack of it) that we have received from others in our lives.  Often times it is our own earthly father that we begin to see God as.  If he rejected you then God will reject you.  If he was tough and unforgiving then God is the same.  If he loved you but then you couldn't please him then God's love becomes conditional for you. And so on... The devil loves nothing more than to get us to start seeing God in human terms and through human relationships.  Man will fail.  God will never fail. God says His Word is true BUT we have to believe it.  If we know it and accept it as our theology but don't truly believe it in our hearts then we will continue to walk in defeat and insecurity.  Once you really believe the truth of God's Word then you will see that everything He does is because He is love and He LOVES you!

So ask Him to show you if there are any areas where you have put Him in a box and equated Him and His love with a human relationship.  Ask Him to show you how much He loves you and to help you to believe it.  It will change your life!

The More I Seek You...

Have you heard that song that says "The more I seek you, the more I find you.  The more I find you, the more I love you..."  I can certainly understand the writer's heart in this.  Many times in my life I have sought God and asked Him to meet me.  Many of those times I walk away wondering why He didn't speak to me or give me an answer to the question I was seeking Him on.  I have been very convicted lately that in my immaturity I was giving up way too prematurely.  Sometimes we hear from God right away and other times we really have to press in.  I think that sometimes He may hold back because He knows the reward that follows when we go deeper in Him. 

I, so often, fall into the trap of thinking that I am too busy to take the time to spend with Him but I have never regretted the time I have spent with Him afterwords.  He always redeems the time for me and amazingly I seem to get more done on a day that I take time with Him. The thing that amazes me over and over again is how much He blesses me when I take the time to press in and spend time with Him. He deserves all praise, all glory and all honor, but when I give it to Him I always get so much in return. There is no other God that is so loving and so giving! He takes me, in that time, and transforms me into the best me that I can be.  Only He can do that and when we limit our time with Him so much, we limit what He can do with us and through us. We need to know Him and allow Him to show us those things that we are unaware of about ourselves that need to be changed.  So I challenge you to really press in, even beyond what you normally would, and watch what He does...

Second Hand Christianity

A couple years ago God spoke to my heart that He didn't want consignment Christians that He wanted the best for us.  I didn't really understand that at the time.  I thought it had something to do with finances but today I was reminded of that and He spoke ever so clearly to my heart that it has to do with how we meet Him and what we expect from Him in our lives.  So many times we seek wise people out to speak for Him in our lives.  They may be friends, pastors, book authors or leaders.  God's heart for us is to run to Him and lay it all at His feet. When we have problems or needs we should seek Him first.  By consignment Christians, I mean everything we get comes from someone else.  If we aren't careful we can begin to idolize the person that we are seeking God through.  Not that God doesn't put people in our lives to speak through but if we never move to a place of real intimacy with Him we are not going to become all that He wants us to.  His heart is to know you and to be known by you.  He will meet you if you will take the time to meet with Him.  He is speaking to you and if you will stop and listen you will hear Him.  We should be impressed with the Jesus that we see in others but that same Jesus should be impressing others through you.  Isaiah 2:22 says "Stop putting your trust in mere humans. They are as frail as breath. How can they be of help to anyone?"  Let's stop getting all of our goods second hand from others and start seeking them first hand from our willing Lord.

Unusual Wisdom

In my effort to be what I am called to be and to trust that God knows best, I have come back to simply seeking wisdom.  Proverbs talks about wisdom being a great treasure worth pursuing and James 1:5-7 says:

 "If you need wisdom -- if you want to know what God wants you to do -- ask him, and he will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking. But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to answer, for a doubtful mind is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. People like that should not expect to receive anything from the Lord."

There you have it.  If I ask, expecting to receive it, I will be given wisdom.  Done and done.  If I don't know how to handle a problem with my kids, I ask for wisdom. If I don't know how to organize my day, I ask for wisdom.  If I don't know the next step to take in life, I ask for wisdom.  How loving must God be to "gladly" tell you what He wants you to do?  Is anyone more wise than Him?  Could there ever possibly be a better answer then the one He would give?

So why don't we practice asking God for wisdom more? Could it possibly be that we have believed a lie that God doesn't care about our circumstances?  That He is concerned with the big stuff but not the small details in our lives?  If we don't believe that He really cares about us and every aspect of our lives do we really believe Him and His Word?  Psalms 37:23 says "The steps of the godly are directed by the LORD. He delights in every detail of their lives."   "Every detail" means all of it!  Even what we may have deemed unimportant to Him.  With that knowledge we should be quick to sit at His feet seeking wisdom for all of those details. The things that trouble us day in and day out are not too hard for Him to fix.  They are not outside of His knowing.  All wisdom comes from God and if we have understanding or wisdom about anything it is because He has revealed it to us. 

I was reading in Acts one day a couple months ago where Stephen basically shares the story of Christian History leading up to Christ in a very condensed way.  Something new stood out to me this day though because God had already been stirring in my heart this new desire for seeking wisdom and a new understanding of the importance of it.  Acts 7:10 has a sentence right in the middle of it talking about Joseph where it says "God also gave Joseph unusual wisdom."  Wait! Stop! What?  "Unusual wisdom?"  I want that!  Can you imagine if there were more Christians in this world walking around with unusual wisdom from God?  How much more effective would we be in every aspect of our lives from the every day stuff to the once in a lifetime stuff?  My prayer has become "Lord, would you give me unusual wisdom?"  I am asking for wisdom anyway but unusual wisdom would be really great!

I would encourage you to read Proverbs 2 and really ask God to show you how important His wisdom is to you and your walk with Him.  I'll leave you with Proverbs 2:9 to think over.  Speaking about wisdom and understanding it says: "Then you will understand what is right, just, and fair, and you will know how to find the right course of action every time."  What a promise!

Chasing After My One Thing

God has been working on me.  He always has been throughout my whole lifetime but recently He has turned up the heat.  I feel like my heart is so overflowing that it will burst if I don't share just some of what He is teaching me and showing me.  So here goes.  First, a little background on me, I am a wife, a mother of 6 children but before all of that I am a child of God.  I don't do anything well unless I keep that in prospective.  I have struggled with so many things over my lifetime that so many other women struggle with.  I have felt insecure and shameful.  I have felt overwhelmed and inadequate.  I have felt unworthy and unlovable.  So much of that has changed recently as God has me on an amazing path of healing and freedom.  I am continually amazed at my heavenly Father's patience and persistence with me. It is obvious to me that He is full of grace and compassion and He will faithfully complete the work He started in me.  That hasn't always been so obvious though.  My view of Him and His role in my life had been so distorted for so long. Recently I was challenged to really examine what I believe about Him and what He says about me.  I know what the Bible says and I have my theology but do I really (deep in my heart) believe what I read in God's Word about myself and others?  My answer to that question was no.  Not that I knew that consciously or would outright say that I didn't believe God's Word but there was a block there (deception, really) that kept me from truly believing what God says about me.  You see, I have learned that I have been given authority and I am so very powerful when I live my life knowing who I am in Christ.  Satan would like nothing more than to keep me from that knowledge so that I will never reach my full potential.  The beautiful thing is that God has been more than faithful to heal my hurts, cleanse my heart and gently reveal the lies that I have believed for a long time.  I am a major part of God's plan.  I have a calling and a destiny and I will only reach it when I believe that I can and that my heavenly Father is with me every step, leading me and cheering me on.  When I start to live believing the truth then I start to see things in the perspective of eternity.  That perspective changes everything for me.


The title of this blog comes from Luke 10:42 (NLT).  It is the story where Jesus goes to visit Mary and Martha's home and Martha is busy "worrying over the big dinner she was preparing." Mary, However was sitting at the feet of Jesus listening to his teaching.  Martha asked Jesus to tell Mary to help her and Jesus said to her "There is really only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it -- and I won't take it away from her." This life that we live in this world can be a crazy busy, hectic life and many times our priorities get so out of whack.  I have known for years that God needs to be first but I have begun to have a whole new revelation as to what that looks like.  There are plenty of good things that we can do with our lives but "good" is not good enough.  God has a "best" plan for us and often it is not the crazy full life that we lead doing "good" things.  It certainly isn't a life that is lived to please others or just look good to others.  That is what Martha was concerned about in the story.  She was worried about impressing Jesus with a "big" meal.  I have been very guilty in the past of trying to impress others with my life and the way I was living.  It think I was even trying to impress Jesus.  He is only impressed however, when we live our lives according to His will and choose to make our one thing being at His feet yielded to Him and His work in our lives.  His plan for me may not be impressive to others but it is the absolute best way that I could possibly live my life and fulfill my purpose. 


God has me back to basics right now.  I feel as though I am starting this daughter, sister, wife, mother, even Child of God thing all over again.  Mainly because my eyes have been opened to things that I never saw before.  I see through a whole new pair of lenses.  They are lenses that shed the light of truth on what once was a lie or a slightly twisted perspective.  I find myself at the feet of Jesus seeking His wisdom in all the areas I used to just copy someone else or just try to do my best.  There I find such freedom and amazing peace.

 I only touched on a small part of what God has been teaching me and I plan to use this blog as a way to expand on it and record all that God is doing in me. Join me on my journey if you'd like. I would love to share the work that God has started and will faithfully complete.