Chasing After My One Thing

God has been working on me.  He always has been throughout my whole lifetime but recently He has turned up the heat.  I feel like my heart is so overflowing that it will burst if I don't share just some of what He is teaching me and showing me.  So here goes.  First, a little background on me, I am a wife, a mother of 6 children but before all of that I am a child of God.  I don't do anything well unless I keep that in prospective.  I have struggled with so many things over my lifetime that so many other women struggle with.  I have felt insecure and shameful.  I have felt overwhelmed and inadequate.  I have felt unworthy and unlovable.  So much of that has changed recently as God has me on an amazing path of healing and freedom.  I am continually amazed at my heavenly Father's patience and persistence with me. It is obvious to me that He is full of grace and compassion and He will faithfully complete the work He started in me.  That hasn't always been so obvious though.  My view of Him and His role in my life had been so distorted for so long. Recently I was challenged to really examine what I believe about Him and what He says about me.  I know what the Bible says and I have my theology but do I really (deep in my heart) believe what I read in God's Word about myself and others?  My answer to that question was no.  Not that I knew that consciously or would outright say that I didn't believe God's Word but there was a block there (deception, really) that kept me from truly believing what God says about me.  You see, I have learned that I have been given authority and I am so very powerful when I live my life knowing who I am in Christ.  Satan would like nothing more than to keep me from that knowledge so that I will never reach my full potential.  The beautiful thing is that God has been more than faithful to heal my hurts, cleanse my heart and gently reveal the lies that I have believed for a long time.  I am a major part of God's plan.  I have a calling and a destiny and I will only reach it when I believe that I can and that my heavenly Father is with me every step, leading me and cheering me on.  When I start to live believing the truth then I start to see things in the perspective of eternity.  That perspective changes everything for me.


The title of this blog comes from Luke 10:42 (NLT).  It is the story where Jesus goes to visit Mary and Martha's home and Martha is busy "worrying over the big dinner she was preparing." Mary, However was sitting at the feet of Jesus listening to his teaching.  Martha asked Jesus to tell Mary to help her and Jesus said to her "There is really only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it -- and I won't take it away from her." This life that we live in this world can be a crazy busy, hectic life and many times our priorities get so out of whack.  I have known for years that God needs to be first but I have begun to have a whole new revelation as to what that looks like.  There are plenty of good things that we can do with our lives but "good" is not good enough.  God has a "best" plan for us and often it is not the crazy full life that we lead doing "good" things.  It certainly isn't a life that is lived to please others or just look good to others.  That is what Martha was concerned about in the story.  She was worried about impressing Jesus with a "big" meal.  I have been very guilty in the past of trying to impress others with my life and the way I was living.  It think I was even trying to impress Jesus.  He is only impressed however, when we live our lives according to His will and choose to make our one thing being at His feet yielded to Him and His work in our lives.  His plan for me may not be impressive to others but it is the absolute best way that I could possibly live my life and fulfill my purpose. 


God has me back to basics right now.  I feel as though I am starting this daughter, sister, wife, mother, even Child of God thing all over again.  Mainly because my eyes have been opened to things that I never saw before.  I see through a whole new pair of lenses.  They are lenses that shed the light of truth on what once was a lie or a slightly twisted perspective.  I find myself at the feet of Jesus seeking His wisdom in all the areas I used to just copy someone else or just try to do my best.  There I find such freedom and amazing peace.

 I only touched on a small part of what God has been teaching me and I plan to use this blog as a way to expand on it and record all that God is doing in me. Join me on my journey if you'd like. I would love to share the work that God has started and will faithfully complete.